Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Tommy Anders

Tommy Anders is one of my favorite gay porn stars. I had a dream about him last night. In the dream he did not really want to have sex but I was like we are so doing this. I do not really like myself in my Dreams, I am not a nice person. I was too forceful in the dream for my liking. I mean Tommy was not really trying to stop me, but I was manhandling him. Ok so I woke up before I was done, and I could feel that I was "very close." Which was really bad, because I could not do anything about it. I had to lay in bed and try not to think about it or him until I fell back to sleep.

Plus, now I have Tommy on my mind. Do you know how hard it is to not look up his porno videos? luckily he has a facebook page with pictures of him but not porn pictures. So I was looking at his facebook pictures, and I saw the ones of him at the
Gay Erotic Expo. And I remember I never got to go to one. Now that I am a lds member I really should not go. Well, there is no sex going on there, so maybe I can go? It would only be a small sin, right?

14 comments:

  1. what is your honest motivation not to sin?

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  2. I received three messages from God, so I feel I had to join the Church. One was about the Book of Mormon and Joseph smith. I do not want anything bad to happen to me in the afterlife. So I guess that is my motivation: fear.

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  3. Heavenly father is a perfect Judge, and he wants us to be PERFECT, but he has made a way for our forgiveness:

    "My little children, I’m writing these things to you so that you don’t sin. But if you do sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous one." (see 1 John 2:1)

    So we don't have to fear, we are not called to fear but to love:

    "And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him. Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. We love Him because He first loved us." (see 1 John 4:16-19)

    "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." (see 2 Timothy 1:7)

    I am not saying that you should go ahead a sin, but that if you avoid sin out of fear, you will never be made perfect. But if you love, if you love God, you will be made perfect. Seek to please him simply because it pleases him:

    "While we were still weak, at the right moment, Christ died for ungodly people. It isn’t often that someone will die for a righteous person, though maybe someone might dare to die for a good person. But God shows his love for us, because while we were still sinners Christ died for us. So, now that we have been made righteous by his blood, we can be even more certain that we will be saved from God’s wrath through him. If we were reconciled to God through the death of his Son while we were still enemies, now that we have been reconciled, how much more certain is it that we will be saved by his life? And not only that: we even take pride in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, the one through whom we now have a restored relationship with God." (see Romans 5:6-11)

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  4. " if you avoid sin out of fear, you will never be made perfect." That is not true. If I do not sin, God does not care why, just that I do not. That is what Elder J told me. Well, he said something like that. AnyHow, I can't do it out of Love, because to me there is nothing wrong with being gay or porn. I think God asking gay people to not get married is asking too much from them. I am doing it only out of fear... I can't bring myself to do it out of love. It is not fair and I do not understand why he would do that. sorry

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  5. I wish I could say that everything I do is done out of a love for God. It is not. A lot of it done out of obligation. But that is not what God desires. But you know, the first, and greatest commandment, Jesus says, is to love God. and to love God completely. I know that feeling of "I CANNOT DO THAT!!" cause I came to that place this year where I have been realising just how sinful I am. And I cannot force myself to love God either. I guess, God wants relationship with us, he wants a relationship with you, but if you are afraid of him, it will not be a very good relationship. Sin seperates us from God. Not just eternally, but it gets in the way of our relationship now. Only when we let it, because Christ is ready to forgive so that we can be in a relationship with God again. I think it is interesting what the Bible says about this: "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;" All of us, and this we continue to do... uhoh...
    ... But Paul's thought does not end there, he goes on to say
    "Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus"!! (Romans 3:23-24)
    Later in Romans it says "For the wages of sin is death" And that is your fear, but then he gives the reason not to be afraid "but the GIFT of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
    A gift! "NOT of works, lest any man should boast" (see Ephesians 2:8-9). We are created to do good works, which is exciting!
    One more verse:
    "God has saved us, and called us with an holy calling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and grace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began" (see 2 Timothy 1:9)

    Honestly, I believe that God can do brilliant things in you and through your life.

    And the second thought is that perhaps sometimes God asks us to do things that don't make sence. But we are called to follow and obey anyhow. We follow out of a love for him, doing what he asks even if we do not understand or agree.

    I hope that your day is going well.

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  6. LOL I envy your dream. At least, U can meet him and touch, too. haha
    How was his position in dream? I cant imagine he is bottom.
    BTW,Can I know your email?

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  7. btb4198@yahoo.com, in the dream he was the bottom... are you lds?

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  8. Nope :D
    R u gay?It is true we feel some kind of guilty when we have religion.
    I sent u email.check it now now.

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  9. dude??
    SpankThis! - When Sternes Away... the boys will play_Scene 3 Full Version (Paul & Tommy) .mp4
    tell me that is not the real porn vid?
    why would you sent that to me? That is kinder mean... I am trying to not watch porn anymore. oh and I am gay...

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  10. Well...THat video is best and very popular. No sex in there and a lot of fun to watch :D Im bi.

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  11. wow. love the fact that they have a WHOLE blog to the supressed and gullible. people religion is no longer the word of god. its warped and twisted. if u want to knwo real religion buy a time machine and go back in time. nothing about modern religion is true. its all been touched by corruption and greed. thos who say it isnt are idiots. NOTHING i repeat NOTHING lasts forever. EVERTYHING man touches is corrupt. man cannot help but use power to his own will. this is life. get used to it. comment on this if u want. but if u feel ur gonna convert me dont try. u'll only disspoint urslef. logic people. logic and common sense. why does no one use these anymore?

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  12. and im sure tommy anders would LOVE to know that someone who isnt even secure enough with himself to fully accept who he is is crushing on him. dude until u can be ok with urself u got no chance with tommy. people, sex, love, gay, straight, bi, hormones, sexual pleasures are ALLLLLL part of being a normal human being. you think that being gay is abnormal? shit. the fact that u are trying to supress human nature makes you a freak. not being gay. accept yourself. your gay. your male. and you like dudes. and sex is not a mind frame. its a hormonal flow. deal with it. the only way your gonna stop it is if u kill urself to stop the flow of blood from carrying hormones to ur brain however i would not suggest it

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  13. OK so believe it or not, I am ok with being gay... And I do not hate myself because I am gay.. However, I got a message from God so I am not going to act on my gay feeling.. That is all.

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  14. you shouldn't 'not act on gay feeling' because that is part of who you are. God will accept you whoever you are, He gave you free will for a reason. Your sexuality and your religion to not have to contradict each other, rather they go hand in hand, and make you a good advocate for acceptance.

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